If you are a parent and you haven't asked yourself "am i messing up my kids?!" then you should probably stop reading now. Good for you. But I doubt there's many of you who haven't asked yourself that question at least once or twice.
I think back to when I was pregnant with Tenley (my oldest) and I think about all the sweet, emotional feelings I was feeling back then. "This is the greatest time in your life", "I have wanted this all my life!" were things that I was probably caught saying. Then our amazing Tenley came into world. As we drove away from the hospital with our sweet girl, I remember thinking "OH. MY. WORD. Did they really just let us walk out of this hospital with a BABY!? They know nothing about us! Are we ready for this responsibility? They just let anyone walk out of here with a little human!!" Talk about a freak out moment. That was it. But life went on and we learned to understand each other, Tenley and I. Tenley became less of a baby and more of a toddler. A horrible toddler! Tenley has always had her own ideas and opinions and she wasn't afraid to share them starting around 18 months. That was about the time that people started saying "about time for another one huh?" I would adamantly say, "I'm not cut out to be the mom of a toddler and a newborn." Well...God thought I was. Along came Paisley. Boy was she a surprise. But above all a wonderful little blessing that has completed our family and made me feel like maybe, just maybe I can do this motherhood thing.
Now, Tenley will be four in September and Paisley will be 2 in December. We have our hands full most days. But I love being a mom to my spirited little girls.
The truth is- I can't do it on my own. I can only be a parent with God by my side. A good parent that is. I am excited to see where this Bible study takes me!
